Sunday, May 22, 2011

Second Runner-Up

Second Runner-Up

When I tell about being second runner up to the Wells Rodeo queen the summer of 1958, I  make sure the listener knows the population of Wells, Nevada—about a thousand—and that there were only eighty-four kids in the high school.  I frame the story to make fun of myself—wearing my mother’s hand-me-downs, and she was no cowgirl.   I remember her felt cowboy hat, a telescope crown with a wide, rolled brim and chin straps; her red suede jacket with its matronly cut, my own five button levis,  her brown cowboy  boots.

“I see by your outfit that you are a cowboy,” the old song goes.  It holds true for cowgirls, too.  I’m sure the girl who won wore a cowboy hat with a tall crown, a white cowboy shirt with pearl snap buttons, tight levis that emphasized her big butt and well-developed quads,  a leather belt with her name tooled on the back, probably from Capriola’s in Elko; and her own boots.

My loyal boyfriend was angry with the outcome, me being second runner up.  He said   I should have  won.  “I was the best looking,” he asserted and then muttered some comparison between the queen and a mud fence. High school love is blind.  The first runner-up was a lovely, dark-haired girl  who was raised on a small ranch in Starr Valley but looked uncomfortable on a horse.   “You sure as heck had the best horse,” my boyfriend said. 

   Although I appreciated his  indignation, I knew  the judges were right.  The girl who won should have won.  She was the real deal.  I was part town girl, part ranch girl.  She came from a family that had ranched in the area for at least fifty years.  I had been in the area since September. .  The previous fall, after my sophomore year in Elko,  our family had moved  to the Marble Ranch headquarters at Deeth, halfway between Elko and Wells.  This was to make life easier for my dad, who was managing the whole operation: seven ranches with about sixty-five thousand deeded acres and about sixty-five hundred mother cows.  Dad was the real deal, no doubt about that.

I did have the best horse, a thorobred cross lent to me by the cow boss,  Jim Dorrance.  I remember practicing in the corral at the ranch, loping in graceful figure eights on this beautifully trained sorrel gelding at least  fourteen  hands high;  galloping to the far end of the corral, reining to a dramatic halt, then backing up.  I’m not sure I practiced getting on and off.  I should have.

The night before the contest it rained hard and the rodeo grounds were thick with a sticky mud.  Part of the procedure after showing my horse,  was to dismount, go to the announcer’s stand, say a few words, remount, and gallop out of the arena.   The cinch was a little loose after working the horse and I can still feel the  tight grip of my left hand on reins and mane and my fear that the saddle would slip.   I still wince, thinking of me in that frumpy getup with mud-caked boots  hoisting myself back on that tall horse and getting the hell out of there.

What was I thinking?  What was sixteen year old Nancy Harris thinking when she agreed to run for  Wells Rodeo queen?   I was flattered to be asked.  I can’t remember who sponsored me.  For all I know, it was some local business that wanted to ingratiate themselves with the Marble Ranches. 

At the time, I thought, “Me?  Someone sees me as a  rodeo queen?”  No way I would say no.  And it was fun.    I remember that we girls were driven to Twin Falls and  interviewed on television.  Television!

If Jim Dorrance lent me a horse for the competition, Jack Walther, gave me a joke for my  tv debut.  A shy bachelor with a gentle sense of humor, Jack also worked for the Marble outfit.   Now well in his eighties, Jack  is much loved at Cowboy Poetry in Elko for his comic verse.   With a twinkle in his eye,  young Jack prompted  me to have the interviewer ask me the name of my horse.  I was to answer, “Mignon.  Because she’s a little fee lay.”  Yep.  I really said that on tv in Twin Falls, Idaho in 1958.  Which was pretty darn sophisticated, since I didn’t know a filet from a rib eye.  A steak was a steak.  It was cooked well done.   However, I felt  no qualms about changing the sex of  Jim Dorrance’s  gelding to “fee-lay” for the sake of a joke.      

Besides being on tv in Twin Falls,  we rode our horses in the parade right down the main street of Wells, which also happened to be Highway 40.  I did know how to sit tall in a saddle. I was riding a fine horse.  The band played.  We waved to our friends on the sidewalk.  Of course, it was fun.

I do remember who  sponsored me to run for Miss Elko County the summer after my freshman year in college.  The Standard station on Idaho Street.  The best gas station in Elko, mind you.   Again, it was a matter of being asked.  If the  guys at the Standard station saw me as Miss Elko County material, I wasn’t going to argue.

 “Wince” goes to “ cringe” of thinking of that experience.   I didn’t come close to fitting the  beauty queen image and I did not win, place, or show.   Furthermore, it was not fun.   A couple of weeks before the contest, we did a photo shoot crammed in a boat in some duck pond east of Elko.  The girl next to me in the aluminum  rowboat seemed a sure bet to win. Going into her a senior year at Elko High, the  beautiful Italian girl  was in a sullen mood that morning, and the photographer from the Elko Daily Free Press standing on the bank  kept yelling at her to smile.  A week later   she dropped out of the contest,  dropped out of high school, and married the acne-faced boy who had knocked her up.

 I don’t remember much of the contest except how much I hated walking across the stage in a bathing suit and high heels. My loyal college boyfriend, who had driven to Elko to show his support,  left the high school auditorium halfway through the event and waited in his Nash Rambler, probably reading Kierkegard.  He later explained that he couldn’t understand why I was putting myself through such a meaningless ritual.   He was minoring in  anthropology.

   The girl who won should have won.  Her name was Nanci  spelled with an ‘i.”  She   had a bosom and a narrow waist.  I remember how cute she looked in a circle skirt with a cinch belt, let alone a bathing suit.

What was I thinking?  Why did  Nancy with a “y” Harris  run for Miss Elko County? Because I was asked.    Remember?  In those days, we waited to be asked.  Maybe I thought that competing would make a woman out of me, or I would be recognized as a woman. Beauty pageant as boot camp.

I understand that the beauty pageant industry has been exposed many times over since those days, and right now many young mothers are concerned with this whole princess madness marketed by the Disney corporation.  But I have to confess that Miss Congeniality is one of my favorite movies, where Sandra Bullock goes from klutz to gorgeous plus action heroine, deposing the mean ex-queen, saving all the other girls—and getting a second look from  Benjamin Bratt, a prince of a guy.  We yearn for transformation and recognition.

A number of years ago, I was  visiting my folks at their small ranch on Thorpe Creek in Lamoille.  I was probably in my early thirties, married with two kids.  I had saddled up one of their horses and gone for a long ride on a beautiful summer day.  Afterward, my dad came out to the barn to help me unsaddle and put the horse away and he said with an admiration that was a little unusual, given  his reserved manner, “You could be a cover girl.”  I beamed.   He continued,  “for one of those catalogs like L.L. Bean.”    I laughed.  LL Bean was not Silver Screen but we take what we can get.  Even if it’s second runner up.










Monday, February 7, 2011

Tuscarora Journal: A Reminiscence "James Sends a Poem"

Sometime in 1996, James sent me this poem by Seamus Heaney with the handwritten message, "Here's the Adobe House mantra."

                Lightenings

Roof it again.  Batten down.  Dig in.
Drink out of tin.  Know the scullery cold,
A latch, a door-bar, forged tongs and a grate.

Touch the cross-beam, drive iron in a wall,
Hang a line to verify the plumb
From lintel, coping-stone and chimney-breast.

Relocate the bedrock in the threshold.
Take squarings from the recessed gable pane.
Make your study the unregarded floor.

Sink every impulse like a bolt.  Secure
the bastion of sensation.  Do not waver
Into language.  Do not waver in it.

Friday, February 4, 2011

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Tuscarora Journal: A Reminiscence "Second Artists' Week, August 1995"

Second Artists' Week, August 1995
Nancy and Rosemary

           "By Any Other Name..."

I started the day by sitting on the flat circle of gravel, a clearing in the midst of dried grass, weeds, and sagebrush about twenty feet from the trucks.  You could call it a meditation spot, but I prefer not to.  I stood up and went over to look at the old gray truck with a weathered stock rack and "Kenect, McGill, 129" in faded black stencil on the door of the driver's side.  Its sidekick is the faded red-to-gray Chevy flat bed.  Next to the wire fence is a jaunty green Willy's .

I'm not into meditation and I don't believe in personifying inanimate objects.  However--when I bring a cup of coffee out here and sit in the morning sun letting my mind wander--I guess that would be meditation if I relinquished the pleasure of random thoughts.  And--if those two trucks and that jeep could talk, I know they'd have stories to tell.  How did they get here?




Monday, January 31, 2011

Degrees of Separation

Notes from Tuscarora, September, 1994

We arrive on a September day that feels like a typical one in August:  dry, dusty, the time of day that flattens the landscape and makes me sorry for  choosing this place.  I don't like the roofline of the addition to the Adobe House.  I think the name "Adobe House" is stupid and pretentious.

Everyone pitches in, unloading the car.  The light changes.  Pretty soon it all feels better.

Getting there.  Every trip is different, but every trip has its own ritual.  Places where I stop.  What I notice on the way.  Stop at Raley's in Elko.  Notice the Hooper's stone house with  the beautiful blue roof.  Think about stopping at Lone Mountain for coffee, but we didn't do it.  We never do.  Notice the Van Norman sign, "In God..." weather tilted letters, some missing.  "What about God?" I wonder.  The willows in Taylor Canyon.  We're getting closer.  The Taylor Canyon Bar is closed.  Turn on to the Midas road for the  seven miles, then turn one more time.

The coincidences.  Six degrees of separation.  John Euler knows the Varneys, whose daughter is married to John's friend, the owner of a paint store in Mill Valley.  Wheatly Allen's friend, Elmer Colette, has been coming here for years to visit Doc Flynne, who has a house near Jack Creek.

The first Artist's Week, when I brought Heidi, Rosemary and Pamela to Tuscarora, we stayed in Winnemucca, had dinner at the Martin Hotel.  The owner asked us, "Where are you going?"

We said, "Tuscarora."

He replied, "We were just up there a couple of days ago."

Monday, January 24, 2011

Tuscarora Journal: A Reminiscence "Friends and Neighbors, 1993"

Friends

On his way back to Ukiah after visiting his son in Salt Lake, Doug Puckering, math teacher at Mendocino College, parked his camper down near the turn-off and spent the night.  The next day he drove around Tuscarora, trying to figure out which was our place.  A devout born-again Christian, Doug later told me that "somebody ought to fix up the cemetery."

My cousin Chris came out from Salt Lake, took a great photograph of me, Mom, Itha, and Annique standing in front of the adobe house.  I love that picture.

When my friend Heidi came, we--Mom, Heidi, Itha, Annique, and I--spent the night in the little cabins at Taylor Canyon.  We continued the discussion about "who would like this place." Neither Itha or Heidi thought their husbands would.  I told both of them, "if you ever want to run away from home, you can always come to Tuscarora."

Other friends:  Sarah Sweetwater.  She loves Tuscarora.  Mom's best friend in Elko, Berna Johnson, came up with her sister and brother-in-law, Kathleen and Bob Ewald.  They didn't say anything critical, but I'm sure they think Mom is crazy.

Neighbors


Charlie Woodbury, 81, was the one who said to my mother, "Helen, I know you are a good old ranch gal.  What're you doing hanging around with them art people?"

Lee Deffabaugh.  I transplanted a yellow rose from her back yard.  I think there are only four lawns in town--hers, the Parks, James's, and the Pottery School.

Jim Linnehan (aka James) left us a beautiful wildflower, wild grass bouquet in a cast iron pot.

Milt d'Azevedo, retired truck driver, Marin County Portuguese.  "Me 'n Charlie's next move is over there."  He nods toward the cemetery.

Felix Thornhill, the Ukiah Thornhills, much to Doug's chagrin.  "Where's Doug?" Felix says.  "I want to take him fishin'."  Milt says nobody will go fishing with Felix anymore.  Felix tells us about his "prostrate operation."  "You turn it on and off, like a little spigot."  No one wanted to inquire further.

One day two bottle hunters came.  We talked to them but wouldn't let them dig on our property.

Saturday, January 22, 2011

Tuscarora Journal: A Reminiscence "Who Would Like This Place?"

                                           Who Would Like This Place?

I tell my sister that the residents are like curators of some derelict art museum, a tribute to two  epochs: the mine tailings are an earth art memorial to the glory days of silver mining and the rusted wrecked cars a tribute to the automobile age.

As we walk past desiccated bodies of ground squirrels lying on the road, we talk about who would like this place, who would "get it."

On the phone I wonder to my sister if we should encourage this "mystical high desert crap."
"Which comes first?" she says.

I said that the reclaimed mine tailings on the other side of  the Glory Hole look like ancient ruins:  slightly Egyptian, slightly Anasazi.

When I was telling John Wetzler about our  real estate purchase, describing the town, the lack of any distinctive architecture, the mining operations and their cyanide pads,  he said, "Nancy, Tuscarora sounds ugly."

On the defensive, I said, "Well, I'm not giving over my summer to O.J. Simpson.  Let's talk about Tuscarora."